Life

Curses and Wishes

Warning: Sappy post coming up!

About fifteen months ago, someone told me in the most demeaning and evilest way I have ever been talked to, “Your time will come when you will hit rock bottom, too!” At that time, I remember that as long as I do good, I will always be taken care of. That is one of my life mantra, to create good karma for myself and the people around me. But as I sit in my little corner on this quiet Saturday evening, I can’t help but think that the person who cursed me was on to something. I am at my lowest point, ever. Emotionally. Physically. Financially.

With all the suicide happening in the world, I see friends posting about being there for you in case you need someone to listen. Still, it takes courage to open up. I’m not that courageous. It could also be my pride. But hey, that’s why I have this blog. I can write freely.

As I see friends announcing another one of their exciting life events, I am both genuinely happy and jealous. When I see friends (mine and Mike) getting together and we get no invite, I feel a little hurt for the both of us. I mean, it’s probably because we rarely go to social events these days. Still! I get over it after double tapping on their posts though. 😉 See? Totally not bitter.

New homes, new pregnancies, and new business ventures are what tears my heart the most. Don’t get me wrong – I feel so, so, so happy for them! I even put a “heart” on their Facebook posts. But those are the posts that make me ask, “What about us?” Mike and I thought we had our lives figured out, but we thought wrong. We don’t know when we can build our dream home (although we love where we are currently). We also don’t know when we will be blessed to start a family. And we both wish we have the resources to even think about establishing our own business. Sometimes, we joke around about quitting our jobs, selling all our possessions, and escaping our debtors, and just be nomads around the world. Easier said than done, of course. We’ve got family and dogs!

So what do you do when people think you’ve got life figured out? Who do you run to? Well, we ran to someone for help about a month ago. He belittled us and made us feel horrible about getting married and getting ourselves in the situation we are in. Mike promised himself to never again make the mistake of thinking family would help us. I felt bad that he had to feel that way… that we have to feel this way.

We just pray and work harder. Then we say, “Someday, we will be able to help those who are in need… without any judgment.” We want to make that come true.

Love, Travel

Engagement’s 2nd Anniversary

At the beginning of June, I booked a round-trip plane tickets to Burbank for Mike and myself, not knowing if the trip would actually happen. However, just in case, I also booked a hotel room for a four-night stay a few days later. I was confident in my booking because Southwest Airlines has an amazing cancellation policy and DoubleTree By Hilton allows for a 24-hour cancellation. What’s great is that I booked my hotel at the right time, because I checked again a week later, and the prices was almost doubled! Phew!

Anyway, the mini vacation happened! We arrived in Burbank on a Saturday morning, and had breakfast at Grits Fullerton. I got Pork Belly & Grits and Mike ordered Bone Marrow & Waffles. Both were delicious! Then, on a whim, we drove to San Diego while monitoring StubHub. We watched our SF Giants play the Padres. Who knew that finding Giants shirt would be so hard in So Cal? LOL. We eventually found a Sports Fever store, where I got a nice shirt for 50% off! We made our way to Petco Park, and their parking price of $15 still amaze us because that is so much cheaper than what we are used to, especially with the garage being across the street from the ballpark! We had Phil’s BBQ right before the game, and we were happy to have set next to a pair of Giants fans. Our team lost, making us 0-2 when in attendance at Petco Park. On the bright side, it was fireworks night! We watched the fireworks show before heading back to Anaheim.

We spent Sunday, most of Monday, and Tuesday at Disneyland & California Adventure. We dined at Carthay Circle and Carnation Cafe, and we also did the on-the-go dining package for Fantasmic. This was mainly because we wanted to celebrate our engagement’s second anniversary. Silly, but it makes us nostalgic thinking about the day of! While waiting for Fantasmic, we sat in a circle talking with a family from Georgia and a local lady (of So Cal). They were really nice people, and made the wait bearable. One thing that we got a laugh out of was when the lady mentioned how folks from the East Coast or anywhere but the West Coast say “Disney” when referring to Walt Disney World, while West Coasters actually say “Land” or “World.” That is so interesting, but I also found some truth to it when I look at my Disney forums! Haha.

We flew back home on Wednesday, and of course, we had to bring back some pastries from Porto’s! Our families love it and they appreciate whenever we bring those boxes of happiness back. Now, I am gearing back to go to work… tomorrow… on a Saturday! But only for four hours. Ha!

If there is anything different from this past vacation, it’s the fact that we were more budget-conscious than we have ever been on a vacation. We also ate a whole bunch of popcorn because we remembered to bring the AP popcorn bucket we bought during our last visit to Disneyland. What was cool is that we were able to get refills for just $1! We must have refilled it 4 or 5 time during the trip. 😛

What’s new everyone?!

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Breakfast at Grits Fullerton
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Petco Park

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Sleeping Beauty’s Castle! & a bunch of people

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